Today I realized that whatever i do now decides my tomorrow...this ain't philosophical....few days back i screwed up my maths board paper....i told about it to mom....she scolded...ignored it.
But all my dreams of studying at DU and other desi ivy league colleges are shattered.
Actually it is like this that i have attempted all questions but not sure of a major part of it. I have assumed it to go bad..really bad unless my paper falls into the hands of an alcoholic examiner. Just fingers crossed for now.
Two months from now I visualize myself sitting in a dingy hall at the counseling of an entrance exam. Right from day 1 i hated engineering. i never wanted to get into all those limits, mechanics shit. i suck at them, heck i just love to hate engineering. Its just a compulsion that i have to pack my bags to hell few months later. I always wanted to study B.Com in the likes of Stephens,Xavier's,Loyola,Osmania...but all gone..long gone..wish i had put a bit more effort for maths..i wud have passed off...even if i wud have managed to to better, at the end of the day its my board-The Bloody Council Of Higher Secondary Education sucks the shit outta u. You try to climb up and up and it just pulls you down in one shot.See so easy like opening a can of beer. Hell raise upon it.
With my Desi Ivy dreams on the verge of ruins i just sit staring the empty wall opposite me searching for....
6 comments:
Hang on..I'm a lil confused now..
Are you in your 12th grade/doing your engineering?
OR
is it written from another's pov?
@illeen-
yeah am in da 12th grade...and its all my story...sad but true...
Hey Sam chill!!!
You gave me a deja vu..i thought the same way but it turned out Engineering is not that bad..
But forget that..dont do engg.. Wait for the results..if you indeed missed the bus...Aim for the next target..ever thought of something like a Masters from DSE..will depend on entrance + marks.. and it will wash off all the 'paap' of having done a BCom from a lesser known place..
sorry for the unsolicited advice but dude cheer up..
@ sarba- thanx a lot for for the advice man....will surely put a thought to that..n yes, i will surely keep u people posted abt. da situation...
Your choice is going to affect the next few years of your life,maybe more.So think hard.And see what's best for you.
and yes..all the best.. :)
DUDE...same here..u knw dat..don't worry just do wateve ur heart sayz..nd who sayz dat derz nthng better dan ENGG...whoever sayz it just show him ur _!_....well doing comm.is much beetr for MASTERMINDS lik us....chill dude..
Get A BEER...:)
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